xo xo

Hello there beautiful readers.

I haven't blogged in a while and for that, I'm sorry. I haven't done really anything that holds any good story to tell for a long while so I haven't had anything to actually talk about, until now.


There's a show most of you may have heard of... It's called Gossip Girl. A quick run down for those who aren't familiar with the hit series is this; A blogger by the name of Gossip Girl likes to write stories on a group of Upper East Side teenagers/young adults and has been doing long before the show actually starts. A group of rich kids who live in Manhattan, USA are the target subjects for this blogger, though they along with the audience have no idea who it is posting all this gossip until the very last episode. It's all about their lives, scandals, scheming, love, lust and friendship and you get to know the characters Chuck, Blair, Dan, Nate and Serena along with there families very well. The show ran from 2007 - 2012 however, as of the beginning of this week, I only just started watching it and it's defiantly up there in my top 5 most loved.

Now, my point... The show got me thinking... What's my life? I have no money and though it's everybody's dream to be rich, I have a feeling I'll never live that dream. I also have no friends. I say that a lot and people say "oh don't be silly, you have friends!" yeah? Who exactly? I have three friends who live the other side of the world and whom I've never met but apart from them, who do I have here? I have 4 people in my life, all of which I speak to and mean a great deal to me. My mum, dad, little sister and fiance... That's all. I don't have a best friend out side of them, I don't have just a friend. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for them being in my life and loving me but surely I should have at least one friend?
Along side those two points, I have no life... I mean that as in all I do is play games or watch something on Netflix or YouTube... And yes, I could go for a walk but that too gets boring after so long. I have no hobbies besides gaming, I have no plans to do things and go places because I can't.

As of right now, I don't have a job though I am looking but I'm looking for something I actually want to do. I want something I can achieve in, something I'm proud to say I do for a living, something where my life feels worth while and that I'm not wasting my 20's doing nothing in my life...
I want a life like in Gossip Girl. Yes they have huge problems but they have friends, eventually have careers and they're so happy and not boring sat at home all day doing nothing and feeling shit about themselves.
I want to be a daughter my parents are proud of, a fiance my partner is proud to call his, a friend that people want to hang around with. I want a life better than this and the only way to get that is to go out there and take it and that's what I'm going to do! I'm going to make friends, I'm going to earn money so I can go out, I'm going to make people proud but most importantly, I'm going to make myself proud.

So watch out world, Harley is back, motivated and ready to get what she wants!

xo xo